Tuesday, April 13, 2010
ive been away and many things have occured. life for me seems to be a cycle, no matter how far i go or how different i do things, my life always comes back to what ive been now. why does it seems that i cant change my life even though i need changes? is this a sign that i should just adapt to it and just go with the flow? what about the meaning of effort?
starting year 3, means no more fooling around like what ive been doing. no more late nights, more attention to my studies. i want to graduate, graduate with the feeling of 'yes ive done it' and not'i wish i could have done better'.
PACMAN ate me up at 9:26 PM
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
results for yesterday's SYF are out, proud to say that SJIJ came back with a bronze and they maintained cause many would have thought they came with anything lesser than bronze.
ive been thinking alot about life these past hours and after doing so, i began to understand what my life is all about, who i really am and all about where i really came from. its no longer shallow thought but really its more to a higher level of understanding.
i thank god for all that HE have provided me with, and i couldn't have asked for more. since ive still have a week left till skool resumes, im gonna revamp my room tomorrow.
PACMAN ate me up at 11:45 PM
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
after six weeks of guiding the boys, finally they made it up stage, expectations was low for them due to several factors but nevertheless, they managed to beat the expectations. indeed they put up a great performance. im proud of those boys, results will only be out tomorrow evening.
late nights have been causing me eye bags and tired faces everyday, time to get proper rest, indeed i need one after all these problems. and im already in my 20's year. certain things have to be changed while others to be improved on. step by step, im sure i can settle it
PACMAN ate me up at 10:16 PM
Monday, April 5, 2010
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i managed to let it out and tell her about it, she kept silent. her silent could jolly well meant alot of things but still i have to follow my conscious state of mind. of cause i would be wondering what it would be like to have continued what we have left but what the point of thinking about it anyway. for now im just drifting in the middle of the ocean. thinking of what to do next and preparing for what may come but nevertheless life always have something for you.
skool's starting in less than 2 weeks, im not in the correct mood to start the semester soon. ive got things to buy, stuff to settle but i'll have to put it to rest for the time being. a long day ahead tomorrow.
dear god, i ask of you, provide me with strengths to overcome what ive been hit with. give me a glimpse of hope to overturn what my life have become, for i could only turn to you.
Labels: getting back on my feet
PACMAN ate me up at 10:38 PM
Sunday, April 4, 2010
a whole night out tonning with valkyer enjoying the cold night's breeze is really something i needed after all that have happened in my life. to sit around and to actually express what ive been facing to them is one of those incredible moments as i do not always like sharing my problems but nevertheless i felt so much better.
started the night with football over at my place, and of cause im the only one supporting the opposition. but still a win is a win. accompanied by slight drizzle we made our way to the basketball court, chill out and played a lil bit of soccer which is all the way till 2 in the morning. i prefer quiet moments where i can analyse things easily and making me feel calm.
a random question that we talked about.
question: why do you want to get into a relationship?
i aNswered: im not finding for a relationship so that i feel special in my life, and no im not finding a relationship to make me feel complete but instead i want to be part of someone else's life and work things out.
and just so you know ive been having a very rough and bad day. that made an additional day to all the bad days that ive been having recently.
if you can see it properly, it spells VALKYER
PACMAN ate me up at 8:13 PM
The smell of morning dew accompanied by the moonlight above me, it would have been beautiful having you around me.. I've thought it through, like how a person used to tell me, " there would be no one who could love you like i've did" i've started believing that it is true.. But all I can say now is that it have been great moments having spent with you.. My heartfelt thanks to you for making me realise what it's like to give myself another chance.. For I'll remember the warmth of every hugs that we've had
PACMAN ate me up at 2:20 AM
Saturday, April 3, 2010
sitting at the corner of my room accompanied by the sounds of raindrops shattering on the ground, the smell of wet grass and the cool breeze of the wind. ive always love rainy days, it give me the sense of calmness deep in me. ive been pondering to myself about alot of things that have occured in my life. i see smiles around me but for me, i have to fake one. this problems and thinking have taken a toll on me now. i settle other's problems but what about my own, i provide game plans for others but do i have one for myself?
thot that this year would prove to be a better year for me as compared to last year but it just feels the same. ive been keeping alot of things to myself but sooner or later i have to spill it out right.
i'll take things slow, even if i fall atleast i learn something. i need to do something, i need to be out from home. valkyer's bbq pit in a few hours, at least i can have some time to get away from all this. i wish..
PACMAN ate me up at 1:45 PM
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